so i’ve been really debating about doing this, but i decided to give it a try. if you go on my page, you’ll see a paypal DONATE button. I’ve put that there to see if I can raise money to get myself to New York for New Year’s Eve.
It seems like it’s not a worthwhile cause, but here’s what’s going on on my end which led me to doing this:
I moved back to Michigan in September with the promise of two jobs — none of which panned out (one because they decided they couldn’t wait one extra day for me to get back home and hired someone else instead, the other told me they’d be hiring when i got back and apparently still are not).
So I’ve had to take back my old job which absolutely kills my fucking soul because i hate it there.
in case you are unfamiliar - michigan is not the place to go looking for jobs.
Despite what my dad might think, I’ve been looking every single day since I got found out my other jobs wouldn’t work out, and I’ve sent my resume to so many people in southeast michigan, I’m surprised I’m not a local celebrity here.
This has triggered my depression to get even worse, a thing I moved back to michigan to try to calm. It’s been a rough few months back here, on top of the shittiest year of my life.
Going to New York has been the one thing I’ve looked forward to lately. And I thought I’d be able to manage it, but now my old job has taken an insane two weeks to actually start me. And they cap hours at 28 to avoid having to offer Obamacare to their employees, so I won’t be working much anyway. I’m really worried I won’t make it and it’s scaring the fucking hell out of me because it’s my own little glimmer of sunshine at the end of a shitty wretched year.
I don’t like talking about this stuff too much, which is why i write poems and whatevs instead, but I wanted to be completely honest with you guys.
If you want to work something out like you donate some money, I draw your portrait or I write you a poem or anything, message me and let me know.
The thought of not going to New York and seeing my friends and being genuinely happy has me in fucking tears.
If you can help in any way, I would appreciate it more than you can ever, ever know.
Thanks guys. xxxx